"Less than an hour after Drew leaves, I'm in her driveway. It's three thirty in the morning. Margot gets home in a few hours, and I wonder how Sunshine will explain her face. I grab my phone out of the cup holder and shove it in my pockets. I still haven't looked at it. I don't want to see her name on the display and all of the what-ifs lit up behind it. I can't face the reminder that if I had heard the phone, if I had picked it up, none of this would be happening." (367)
What-if. Two very small words that can eat you alive. They take over your thoughts without any trace of mercy in them. There are so many things we've all done and would do anything to take it back; to go back in time and change it. But there's a reason we can't and its quite simple. If we could change every mistake we make, no lessons would be learned and no capacity to acknowledge them; that's what differences us from any other animal. Being able to look back and realize what we've done wrong to learn from it and use it in the future. Because we must loose so we can appreciate it all when we win, there must be evil to know what doing good is.
"She's accepting it. We can both be as sorry as we want, but too much has happened that we can't take back. Some things you just have to learn to live with. We both learned that lesson a long time ago." (372)
Going back to my previous statement, when you've been through as much as Nastya and Josh; you learn the hard way there's no going back. And that's the exact reason why they both are so broken, together they're home to one another but apart it's like too bombs colliding against each other.
DISINTEGRATES
- to separate into parts or lose intactness or solidness; break up; deteriorate
- The ice-cream cake disintegrated because of the bad weather.
APT
- inclined; disposed; given; prone
- He's too apt to help others.
ALLOTMENT
- the act of allotting
- He was allotting so much it stopped being okay.
MUSTY
- having an odor or flavor suggestive of mold, as old buildings, long-closed rooms, or stale food.
- There was a musty smell coming from the rotten house next door.
WAGGISH
- like a wag; roguish in merriment and good humor; jocular
- There a lot of waggish TV shows like The Big Bang Theory.
What-if. Two very small words that can eat you alive. They take over your thoughts without any trace of mercy in them. There are so many things we've all done and would do anything to take it back; to go back in time and change it. But there's a reason we can't and its quite simple. If we could change every mistake we make, no lessons would be learned and no capacity to acknowledge them; that's what differences us from any other animal. Being able to look back and realize what we've done wrong to learn from it and use it in the future. Because we must loose so we can appreciate it all when we win, there must be evil to know what doing good is.
"She's accepting it. We can both be as sorry as we want, but too much has happened that we can't take back. Some things you just have to learn to live with. We both learned that lesson a long time ago." (372)
Going back to my previous statement, when you've been through as much as Nastya and Josh; you learn the hard way there's no going back. And that's the exact reason why they both are so broken, together they're home to one another but apart it's like too bombs colliding against each other.
DISINTEGRATES
- to separate into parts or lose intactness or solidness; break up; deteriorate
- The ice-cream cake disintegrated because of the bad weather.
APT
- inclined; disposed; given; prone
- He's too apt to help others.
ALLOTMENT
- the act of allotting
- He was allotting so much it stopped being okay.
MUSTY
- having an odor or flavor suggestive of mold, as old buildings, long-closed rooms, or stale food.
- There was a musty smell coming from the rotten house next door.
WAGGISH
- like a wag; roguish in merriment and good humor; jocular
- There a lot of waggish TV shows like The Big Bang Theory.