"I showered, and I'm trying to keep ice on my face, but really, I just want to go to bed, even if I won't sleep. I wonder if there are words that I can write that will erase the images burned into my brain tonight; that will keep them from coming to find me. Not the ones with Kevin Leonard. The ones with Josh and that girl. The pictures I didn't see. Pictures that are working like acid, burning their way through every good memory and leaving only one behind. I already threw up once tonight at the thought of it, but as soon as the image invades my mind, my stomach convulses again , and I'm back in the bathroom, hung over the toilet and retching. But nothing comes up. There isn't anything left in me." (365)
There's nothing okay about this. She's broke into a million pieces and when there's nothing to hold you together anymore reality hits you. This is how relationships work, when two individuals want to be together but neither one of them is brave enough to say those three little over-rated words out loud. Because exposing yourself to someone like that, it's something I've never experienced. That thing everyone calls love that is amazing but full of expectancy and once you've had a taste of it; you can never get enough of it. Maybe it's only me, but that sounds terrifying.
"She takes a breath and her voice is sincere. 'Are you okay?'. I'm going to start making people put a quarter in a jar every time they ask me that."(366)
When you're shattered, dead. What exactly is feeling okay? Is it having the strenght not to put a knife through your wrist or just never having the nerve to face what happened to you because everyone around you is trying to forget about it. Indiferent, thats what everyone becomes when a life changing event happens.
UNSCATHED
- not scathed; unharmed; uninjured
- Amelia survived the car crash unscathed, while her brother broke three ribs.
RESIGNATION
- the act of resigning.
- He resigned his job, never to work again.
LEISURELY
- acting, proceeding, or done without haste; unhurried; deliberate
- He started to draw her face, leisurely so he didn't miss anything.
SAGE
-a profoundly wise person; a person famed for wisdom.
- She was so sage, he never had to open a book to answer his homework.
EXERTION
- vigorous action or effort.
- She did such an exertion job her boss payed her more.
There's nothing okay about this. She's broke into a million pieces and when there's nothing to hold you together anymore reality hits you. This is how relationships work, when two individuals want to be together but neither one of them is brave enough to say those three little over-rated words out loud. Because exposing yourself to someone like that, it's something I've never experienced. That thing everyone calls love that is amazing but full of expectancy and once you've had a taste of it; you can never get enough of it. Maybe it's only me, but that sounds terrifying.
"She takes a breath and her voice is sincere. 'Are you okay?'. I'm going to start making people put a quarter in a jar every time they ask me that."(366)
When you're shattered, dead. What exactly is feeling okay? Is it having the strenght not to put a knife through your wrist or just never having the nerve to face what happened to you because everyone around you is trying to forget about it. Indiferent, thats what everyone becomes when a life changing event happens.
UNSCATHED
- not scathed; unharmed; uninjured
- Amelia survived the car crash unscathed, while her brother broke three ribs.
RESIGNATION
- the act of resigning.
- He resigned his job, never to work again.
LEISURELY
- acting, proceeding, or done without haste; unhurried; deliberate
- He started to draw her face, leisurely so he didn't miss anything.
SAGE
-a profoundly wise person; a person famed for wisdom.
- She was so sage, he never had to open a book to answer his homework.
EXERTION
- vigorous action or effort.
- She did such an exertion job her boss payed her more.