ENTRY #8
*SPOILER ALERT*
"For a moment I don't know where I am. And for the third time in my life the world shifts under my feet ad I just try to stay standing. Because he's here. It's his face. And it's not a nightmare and it's not a memory. He's here and real and looking at me. And i'm looking back. I'm standing int he middle of a moment that I've dreaded and hoped for since the day I remembered what he did to me. The name on the wall next to the paintings is Aiden Richter, the school is the one in the next town over from Brighton, and the face in front of me belongs to the boy who killed me" (384)
It's been two years since Nastya stopped talking, two year since she remembered what the monster did to her. She goes to a gallery with a friend and runs into him, Aiden Richter. He looks older and she does too, but still not older or different enough because they do recognize each other. And the only word that comes out of her lips are why?. He explains everything to her, how that day he found his brothers body hanging from the ceiling. Nastya wants to hate him but she doesn't, because she feels sorry for him; and literally she became his punching bag to the point where he took what made her, her. Music, playing the piano. The worst part of it all, is that he didn't remember everything and what he did remember was Nastya's hand, he knows exactly what he took away from her. She knows because at the art gallery, one of his paintings is a hand with a pearl in the middle. But I think that everything happens for a reason, maybe there are parts of your life that you'd like to erase but have you ever taken the time to think where would you be now if it didn't happen? I don't think so, for Nastya, if Aiden's brother hadn't killed hymsef and Aiden hadn't found the body, he would've never hit Nastya. And she wouldn't need to run away with her aunt, which means she would have never met Josh. You see now, how every little and big thing counts? We must learn to appreciate what he have never to forget what we've learned. And not to be stuck in the past, but being able to move on accepting the obstacles life throws at you. Remembering it's never as bad as you think.
"I have a list of nerves I started when I was fifteen. I will never be the Brighton Piano Girl again. I will never carry a child. I will never walk down the street in the middle of the afternoon without wondering if someone is waiting to kill me... I will never not know the meaning of the word pain. I understand pain. I understand rage. You gave me the gift of that understanding. You understand it, too. I spent the past three years despising the person who did this to me, the person who stole my life and took my identity. But I realize now I can't steal it back and I`m done spending every day trying to. I will never stop hating you but I don't need to hurt you anymore. If you can heal your life, maybe I can too. But i'd like to believe in the dream of second chances. For both of us." (421)
This is the letter, Emilia, not Nastya anymore; wrote to Aiden. There comes a time in your life where you have two choices, decide to get better or end it all. Emilia chose to get better because she finally realized all she's gained because of this. Music was everything to her, but now she has Josh. And they both saved each other in their unique way, because at the end it sounds cliché but home is not a place; it is that one person you actually feel safe with and you can literally place your life in their hands knowing they will cherish is every step of the way.
I absolutely treasure this book, because once you analyze every part of it; you learn to appreciate the small things. Because as I've said before, life is not a picnic. It's a random fortune wheel where there must be bad to appreciate the good and evil to learn what's right.
WRUNG
- simple past tense and past participle of wring
- The phone wrung so many times I had to disconnect it.
UNFAZED
- not dismayed or disconcerted; undaunted
- He was unfazed by he's previous mistakes.
CHIME
- an apparatus for striking a bell so as to produce a musical sound, as one at the front door of a house by which visitors announce their presence.
- Her chime outside her house had such an annoying sound!
SHUDDERS
- to tremble with a sudden convulsive movement, as from horror, fear, or cold.
- He shuddered against the wall after the assault.
DEEJAY
- disc jockey
- There was a deejay in the middle of the snow.
*SPOILER ALERT*
"For a moment I don't know where I am. And for the third time in my life the world shifts under my feet ad I just try to stay standing. Because he's here. It's his face. And it's not a nightmare and it's not a memory. He's here and real and looking at me. And i'm looking back. I'm standing int he middle of a moment that I've dreaded and hoped for since the day I remembered what he did to me. The name on the wall next to the paintings is Aiden Richter, the school is the one in the next town over from Brighton, and the face in front of me belongs to the boy who killed me" (384)
It's been two years since Nastya stopped talking, two year since she remembered what the monster did to her. She goes to a gallery with a friend and runs into him, Aiden Richter. He looks older and she does too, but still not older or different enough because they do recognize each other. And the only word that comes out of her lips are why?. He explains everything to her, how that day he found his brothers body hanging from the ceiling. Nastya wants to hate him but she doesn't, because she feels sorry for him; and literally she became his punching bag to the point where he took what made her, her. Music, playing the piano. The worst part of it all, is that he didn't remember everything and what he did remember was Nastya's hand, he knows exactly what he took away from her. She knows because at the art gallery, one of his paintings is a hand with a pearl in the middle. But I think that everything happens for a reason, maybe there are parts of your life that you'd like to erase but have you ever taken the time to think where would you be now if it didn't happen? I don't think so, for Nastya, if Aiden's brother hadn't killed hymsef and Aiden hadn't found the body, he would've never hit Nastya. And she wouldn't need to run away with her aunt, which means she would have never met Josh. You see now, how every little and big thing counts? We must learn to appreciate what he have never to forget what we've learned. And not to be stuck in the past, but being able to move on accepting the obstacles life throws at you. Remembering it's never as bad as you think.
"I have a list of nerves I started when I was fifteen. I will never be the Brighton Piano Girl again. I will never carry a child. I will never walk down the street in the middle of the afternoon without wondering if someone is waiting to kill me... I will never not know the meaning of the word pain. I understand pain. I understand rage. You gave me the gift of that understanding. You understand it, too. I spent the past three years despising the person who did this to me, the person who stole my life and took my identity. But I realize now I can't steal it back and I`m done spending every day trying to. I will never stop hating you but I don't need to hurt you anymore. If you can heal your life, maybe I can too. But i'd like to believe in the dream of second chances. For both of us." (421)
This is the letter, Emilia, not Nastya anymore; wrote to Aiden. There comes a time in your life where you have two choices, decide to get better or end it all. Emilia chose to get better because she finally realized all she's gained because of this. Music was everything to her, but now she has Josh. And they both saved each other in their unique way, because at the end it sounds cliché but home is not a place; it is that one person you actually feel safe with and you can literally place your life in their hands knowing they will cherish is every step of the way.
I absolutely treasure this book, because once you analyze every part of it; you learn to appreciate the small things. Because as I've said before, life is not a picnic. It's a random fortune wheel where there must be bad to appreciate the good and evil to learn what's right.
WRUNG
- simple past tense and past participle of wring
- The phone wrung so many times I had to disconnect it.
UNFAZED
- not dismayed or disconcerted; undaunted
- He was unfazed by he's previous mistakes.
CHIME
- an apparatus for striking a bell so as to produce a musical sound, as one at the front door of a house by which visitors announce their presence.
- Her chime outside her house had such an annoying sound!
SHUDDERS
- to tremble with a sudden convulsive movement, as from horror, fear, or cold.
- He shuddered against the wall after the assault.
DEEJAY
- disc jockey
- There was a deejay in the middle of the snow.